Solstice reading card 7: My lucky number

7 Scrying – June 20:

In the tradition of scrying at the time of Midsummer, this card shows us a blessing to come. 

Five of Stones.

A person is sitting just inside the protective arch of a cave entrance while multiple lightning bolts from all sides speak of “heavy weather”. Nonetheless the person has managed to light a small fire, not so much for warmth but rather for comfort. The person is in a reflective mood, looking pensively into the flames.

I too am in a reflective mood today.

This morning I realized, I just barely dodged a bullet without even knowing about it.

I am sooooo lucky!

I went on a bit of a “recognizance” drive this morning, further down our bush road to find out, where actually the damage is, that all the Ontario electricity company trucks, vans and personnel carriers, helicopters and 18-wheelers loaded with hydro electric poles are headed.(= “Hydro” for us Canadians is the word used for electricity)

What I discovered is a scene of utter devastation just barely 1 mile away from my home: A micro- burst had hit there and over a 14 km radius thousands of Trees were down = cut off at a height of about 6 feet, thrown asunder onto the small cottage community at leach Lake 2 km away from here, obliterated several cottages and literally buried the road and all other infrastructure, electric poles, telephone lines and electricity lines.

The work crews can not even get to the downed lines right now, because the road is impassable…..

I had known, that storm had caused nasty damage, but not, that it was THIS BAD.

I am soooooooo lucky!!!!

I SAW the thing roaring across our property,past my house, even took a few pictures and then saw the Trees whipping in circular motion in the fury of the mini-tornado!

I am sooooo lucky, nothing happened to me or our house!

After talking to the fore-man of the various work crews and some cottages, that saw their dream on the lake shattered to pieces I crawled home to m little problem and resolved to shut up and stop wailing about not having “hydro” for a few days…..

Then, tending to my rattling generator I drew my card of the day for this spread, stared in disbelief at the image – and started to cry.

Yes, I am in a pensive mood.

Yes, I am safe from the storm.

I am soooooo lucky!

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Solstice reading day 6: Of Sticks and Strengths

6. Oak King – June 19:

A dedication to the Oak King, who is now near the height of his power in his battle with the Holly King.

This card shows us our strength. 

Well, DO YOU SEE ME?

Here I am!!

wielding a big stick at –

  • well, at Ontario Hydro for not turning our electricity back on before Tuesday evening,
  • at Xplorenet in New Brunswick, whom one has to phone to get an internet up-link repaired when it is busted by lightning and who have a 9 1/2 hour waiting line to take your call and then a 5 day wait until someone comes out here to fix it…..
  • and at Peter, for being on “vacation” and currently visiting all kinds of friends and relatives and eating nice food, while I have to eat whatever came half thawed out of my freezers…..
  • Grumble!!!!!

    Well, now to my other strengths – other than growling menacingly:

    Yes, I CAN deal with it all.

    It is a bit exhausting, but I manage. I always do. Stuff like quiet meditation will have to smoulder on the back-burner, but I have a lot of resilience to deal with all the little nasty stuff life throws at me/ us in our daily life.

    At times I have to reach a little deeper into my back pocket to find it and pull it out.

    For example, I have good people skills and with a few phone calls i managed to circumvent all the work order waiting lists and procedures at Xplorenet and have someone come up from Barrie right away. I knew someone who knows someone who knows someone who is / was a patient of mine and was glad to do me a little favour…..

    I got all my wildlife sorted: 2 Raccoon mothers, one not very healthy,, poor thing –  are getting medical care and their food and water on 2 DIFFERENT sides of the house, so that the growling and bite-fights stop. The Mother Bear, that comes around in late afternoon – 2 small cubs in toe, sadly gets none of the cat kibbles but I put some of the stuff from the freezer, that was “out over 24 hours” into the bush close to her day-bed for her, where only she can go and all the Coon- caboodle can not…..

    I am even up to snuff with my jewellery orders! 🙂

    when my strengths alone is not enough or I need the finesse of others, I know, when to call for help and I do.

    For right now, all my sticks are sorted and I can let my guard down a little…..

    Hey man! I am even learning something: How to use our new fancy cell phone for more than just calling people! 🙂

    I now can show off a brand spanking new app telling me about Ontario Hydro power outages and another one that has a tornado warning system.

    I just respectfully hope, that I will never need to use either of them…..

Solstice reading day 5: No Strawberries for this Hermit :(

5. Festival of Strawberries –

June 18:

As the strawberries ripen, this card shows us the sweetness in our lives. 

Well, being a Hermit alone in my hermitage definitely has its sweet sides. I can decide, when to do what and otherwise make some room in my daily schedule to do a few things for myself = like working on this spread, read one of my many new books, do some extended meditations or even- – – grzzzwong.

That was it.

Yesterday – that is….

With a loud rumble a large thunderstorm cell collided with a stubborn cold front right over my lonely bush rooftop, dumping a ton of icy hail and then proceed to uproot a few trees and dump them onto our 1500feet long driveway and onto the road into town.

Sure thing, the electricity was all whipped out, and with it the phone lines and the internet connections.

So by 3.00 pm I was truly a hermit, holding up my kerosine lamp to the electricity panel in the dark basement, wondering, how to get all my utilities going again.

The only difference between me and the person on my card now is, that it is the Summer Solstice we are approaching, that the hail is rapidly melting into grey mush, that I am not wearing a green cloak, but a zipped up mosquito jacket and there is no wren, but a nursing Raccoon mother, tits swollen with milk, sitting at my feet and wondering , what just happened. She is hungry but there are no more sweet strawberries to be had for either one of us. She can get some cat kibbles and I have to get to work getting our large generator going so there will be some lights in the house this evening.

By-by quiet rest and meditation 😦

Here comes hermit Mi-Shell in survivor mode…. 😦

Solstice reading card 4: Green lines of love and communication:

4. Juno, Goddess of Fertility and Union –

June 17: Celebrating the ancient Roman goddess for whom the month of June is named.

This card shows us an area of fertile growth in our lives. 

My card today is all green, with the glowing eye of the sun at the bottom, spitting out stars. White and yellow lines striving upward, some of them fill a red heart in the centre.

It is the 2 of cups reversed 😦

The 2 of cups is the scene of a handfasting ceremony between 2 ancestral Celtic Spirits: The Horse Goddess and the Green Stag. Selkies and Snakes are the bridegrooms and brides maids. The couple holds one pair of hands up towards the sun. Red hot passion flows from the heart in the centre upwards through these hands and merges with the energy of the sun. Their other hands join downward, love flowing into the 2 cups that stand between them. Male energy into her cup, female energy into his…..

The card is filled with the colours and symbols of fertile growth and abundance and festive celebration. All is wonderful, magical and passionate.

It ‘s just, that it is reversed.

It is true for me and my man right now. there is no reason for any festive mood or celebration at all – rather the reverse is true. All is well, loving and good between Peter and me, we are enjoying a flood of abundance in our lives right now, but we are physically separated by a continent and an ocean. We can communicate, once a day via phone. (He has no WI-fi ) His mom’s sun is setting – fast, filling all of us with dread of what is to come. She is confused and very angry at him for “barging in and meddling in her affairs, her independence.”

We have been through it before, with Peter’s dad.

Yes, we do communicate, once a day – so the lines of communication = the energy flow is still there – and strong, but I would sooo love to just hug him and give some comfort in all this…..

For right now however I am sitting in our beautiful all so VERY GREEN Canadian bush and all I can do is give some advice as to how to deal with someone with dementia and a sporadic memory.

Solstice Reading card 3: Of Foxes and Tears

3. Night of the Teardrop – June 16:

Remembrance of the tears of Isis causing the Nile River to overflow.

This card shows what our emotions are telling us at this time. 

For today I drew the Fox, the Knight of Wands

I seem to be going with a Wand theme here!

All growth, creativity , Fire, energy all the time, even when asked about a question, that addresses my feelings.

In terms of the question I am “hung up” on “night of the tears”.

Yes I could cry a river right now.

A river of tears for my Mother in law, Elisabeth, who at 89 is rapidly sliding into dementia. She bravely tries to cover up her multiple lapses with some sarcastic wit, a typical symptom of the problem. My husband is now over in Germany, with her to rally his 2 brothers and come up with all the sad stuff that will have to happen next, that will curtail her independence and send her off on the long lonely road into darkness.

I could also cry roaring rivers of angry tear for my sister/ friend and for my Native American teacher Ed ( ***)  both befallen with cancer in the later stages.

Yes, I do/ did drum and ask the Spirits for help, and for a while it worked on one and will still work on the other, but I was also told by the Spirits, that ultimately both stand in the sunset of their life……

As a shaman, I can help – to some extend……

But I can not prevent the inevitable.

Not for myself and not for others. We all will have to take that journey at some point.

So often I just cry a river….. and pray, for them to “be in Grace” as long and as well as possible.

The Fox on my card stands within – what in Siberia we call a “dalbur”, a wishing rod.

Some people can use them to witch for water, shamans decorate them with bells for the Sky Spirits and Horse hair for “Hümorü” = Windhorse Energy = Life Energy and then we work on our patients with them. My dalbur also has Raven claws, for Ee’ren Karakoruk, who guides Souls…..

The Fox – I wrote a very long post about Fox Medicine on the Shamanic Drum blog , so ifff anyone is interested, check it out.

https://shamanicdrumm.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/fox-medicine/

Fox like every predator knows everything about death. He is a knight of the swift kill. That is his wisdom. That is, what gives him life.

Ee’ren Dilgiczek is turning around and looking back.

At what was – a full life, well lived, full of love and creativity, kids, grand kids…..

As I am drying my tears, I am taking comfort in that

Solstice Reading Card 2 Hearth Fire:

2. Vestalia – June 15:

An ancient Roman festival dedicated to Vesta, Goddess of the Hearth.

This card shows us our hearth, the fire at the centre of our life and home, and how to tend to it.

My Hearth Fire card

is the 2 of Wands from the Greenwood Tarot:

A Person stands between 2 staffs, the third staff is deep within him/ her as a sacred centre.

The red and white Snakes form a double helix of kundalini Medicine Energy and have risen above the person’s heart and are reaching the the throat energy centre any moment. then, when the heart overflows into the throat, will we will hear words of wisdom -or a chant?

The Person is changing form being person to being Shaman/ healer/ seer; hands raised to receive and transmit this sacred inner fire. The air surrounding this seer is flirrrrring with the Energy and it swirls outward as well as inward in fluid drops of Medicine Power and insight.

I had my first full up rising of the kundalini Energy when I was barely 18 years old and it transformed me completely!!

It was exhilarating painful, confusing delicious and yes, completely transformational……

Since then THIS is my inner HEARTH FIERE and the guiding force for my shamanic practice and work with my patients.

It flows up from the Earth through me and out through them and sometimes also their loved ones and ultimately back into the Earth. I do feel it of course, but when the trance is full On” I can also see and smell it. Flirrring Energy for which I am just a convenient conduit.

Yes, in the card I also see the white pebbles that actually form the ground = the Earth = the need to be grounded, when it happens. The centre conduit open but not in a way, that completely overwhelms the practitioner – like it inevitably will, when it happens the very first time…..

Since back then I have also help people through their very first kundalini rising experience and its aftereffects…

How do I tend to it?

By giving Thanks for being allowed to let it flow through me onward to others.

This Fire after all is also the sacred source for my creativity and so for my daily income as an artist. It also is the very Fire that rises in me, when I read Tarot for others; just that then it is a gentle sissseling tickle coming up my spine into the top of my head…..

I honour this Energy by not “holding on”, by grounding myself, by – again- NOT over-doing it, because this Fire can easily burn a candle on both ends and burn up a person completely, consume him/ her. Create nothing but “burned toast.”

Chesca Potter, the artist of the Greenwood Tarot knows the trance and that feeling. In that aspect we are “birds of a feather”. She however also knows, how to DRAW that! For that I am very thankful.♥

Back to today and this reading:

Today, when pulling this card of course the shamanic aspect of this card is the first thing I pay attention to.

Sooo, while the Kundalini and the DNA-like double helix of the healing Snakes are my inner Hearth Fire, I should not forget the mundane booooring good old stove in the middle of my house. In the middle of the Canadian bush it keeps us toasty warm, even when it is – 40 centigrade outside. It then is the natural centre of the home and through its glass window we can see, observe and meditate with the roaring flames inside. A good Fire meditation late at night at the stove – or outside at our fire ring is rejuvenating and healing in itself. It is the daily “little Fire, that can”

In hectic times – like the ones I confronted in yesterday’s reading, that is essentially important. So I am glad, that while yesterday’s card among other things also featured this “little Fire, that can” today’s card features the Fire of my Life.

May YOUR Fire burn bright as well!

the Sacred days of Summer spread:

I am participating in a group on Aeclectic Tarot, that is doing a Summer Solstice Reading with “the Sacred Days of Summer ” spread.

http://www.tarotforum.net/showthread.php?t=275081&page=4

Each day for the next 12 days we will draw 1 card for this spread.

Here is a little more info about this spread – and maybe you will follow along?

🙂

 

The Sacred Days of Midsummer spread is inspired by the Sacred Days of Yule Spread created by June Kaminski. This spread brings in inspiration from various cultures to help us embrace the sacredness of the festive season of summer. This is an advanced spread for any level of reader to use during the time of Midsummer, June 14-June 25. We will walk this sacred path together around the Summer Solstice.

Like the Yule spread, the Sacred Days of Midsummer spread is unique because it is done over these twelve days. You need to find a quiet private space to progress through this spread, since a card is added and left on the wheel as each day passes.

Sacred Days of Midsummer Interpretation

This spread will help you to learn to apply the tarot to enjoy and enrich your passage through the twelve days from June 14th to 25th, drawing on multicultural festivities that take place during this time.

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—-1——3——
–12———4—-
11————-5-
-10———–6—
—9——–7—–
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1. Birth of the Muses – June 14: This card shows how our inspiration and creativity is manifesting.

2. Vestalia – June 15: An ancient Roman festival dedicated to Vesta, Goddess of the Hearth. This card shows us our hearth, the fire at the center of our life and home, and how to tend to it.

3. Night of the Teardrop – June 16: Remembrance of the tears of Isis causing the Nile River to overflow. This card shows what our emotions are telling us at this time.

4. Juno, Goddess of Fertility and Union – June 17: Celebrating the ancient Roman goddess for whom the month of June is named. This card shows us an area of fertile growth in our lives.

5. Festival of Strawberries – June 18: As the strawberries ripen, this card shows us the sweetness in our lives.

6. Oak King – June 19: A dedication to the Oak King, who is now near the height of his power in his battle with the Holly King. This card shows us our strength.

7. Scrying – June 20: In the tradition of scrying at the time of Midsummer, this card shows us a blessing to come.

8. Summer Solstice – June 21: We are at the height of the sun’s power, the longest day, in the Northern Hemisphere; OR in the Southern Hemisphere this day is the turning point for the days to get longer. This card shows us how to shine our own light like the Sun.

9. Honey Moon – June 22: This card shows us how to release anxieties or worries, how to enjoy ourselves in this moment.

10. Saint John’s Eve – June 23: Like the herbs traditionally gathered on St. John’s Eve, this card shows what protects or heals us.

11. Guru Purnima – June 24: Indian festival of expressing gratitude to teachers. This card reminds us of a lesson we have learned, or an experience or person that has taught us something, that we should remember and have gratitude for as we move forward.

12. Parvati, Earth Mother – June 25: The card shows us how to ground ourselves and how to connect with the earth’s abundance.

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Directions
This spread is unique from other spreads – it is done one card at a time, over the course of twelve days. Each card is meant to be drawn and reflected upon as a separate entity, with a special unique message for the particular sacred day.

1. If you like you may print out a copy of the Yule wheel spread for guidance on the layout- or just use the layout shown there, also shown above.

2 Select a consistent time of day to draw each card over the twelve days if you can- or, just find a time that works for you.

3. Each day, draw one card from your tarot deck and lay it out according to the corresponding spoke of the wheel. Reflect on each card and glean the message it has for you, according to the meanings given above.

4. By June 25th your wheel will be full with the drawn twelve cards. Reflect on the overall meaning of these twelve cards as a whole and write down your impressions of the message for this sacred time.

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Well, my first card in this spread is the 10 of Wands.

A person is carrying 10 long poles towards a tent, set up beneath a starry sky illuminated by the waxing moon. A fire provides warmth, light and comfort at this camp site. I see, that the task the person is engaged in is laborious and difficult. Tooooo many poles to control at the same time. Are the poles meant as fuel for the fire or will they be for setting up another tent/ tzartan/ teepee or other shelter?

I do resonate deeply with the image.

This is me, trying to carry the load – all by myself.

It actually is EXACTLY, WHAT IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!

Today was a stressful hectic day: We had to set up our booth at the local Farmer’s Market all the while showing and teaching friends, that wanted to help out, how to do that. That made the whole procedure awkward and even more time consuming then it already is. Later one of our friends drove my husband to a larger town down south, so he can catch a bus to the airport to fly to see his ageing and recently quite confused mother in Germany. Peter will be gone for – not as we discussed 14 days, but decided on 3 weeks. So, literally, I am left holding up the “sticks” here, with our business, 2 more than 15 year old cars, that always break down, a log-house in the bush where a Black Bear just broke in the basement door at dawn today, making a mess and letting millions of Mosquitoes and Blackflies and other biting insects, never mind mice into the house…..

I just see, the door of the tent on my card of the day is open . It looks inviting, but…..

It might be inviting friends – and or trouble…….

In the days to come I will have to carefully choose how much of a “load” I can and how much of it I am willing to carry – all by myself. Help is there, when I need it. It is also time for finding new and creative ways to solve problems. I can rely on my creativity; I am a professional artist. I also have a “knack“to “Jerry-rig” things, when in a pinch.

The scene in my card is night.

At the end of the day, I will have to drop all the sticks, chores and all the stuff to do and make some time to relax and sit by the fire to regenerate, or I will wear myself out.

Sometimes I have a tendency to do that, just to get things “done”.

This is the 10 of Wands, and 10 point towards endings.

Yes, there will be an end to this in about 3 weeks, when Peter comes home again – or will there?

In 3 weeks our summer season will start in earnest with thousands of tourists descending on Muskoka and our business will be hopping like crazzzzy until mid September….

We will both be carrying more than “too many sticks”

We also KNEW, that times like this would come: Peter;s mom declining and he having to take a more active role in her care and decision making. In Germany he will be carrying just as many “sticks” as I am here. They will be of a different nature, but they will weigh heavy on both of our souls.

May he too have a fire, where he can relax, at the end of a hard day.