Solstice reading day 5: No Strawberries for this Hermit :(

5. Festival of Strawberries –

June 18:

As the strawberries ripen, this card shows us the sweetness in our lives. 

Well, being a Hermit alone in my hermitage definitely has its sweet sides. I can decide, when to do what and otherwise make some room in my daily schedule to do a few things for myself = like working on this spread, read one of my many new books, do some extended meditations or even- – – grzzzwong.

That was it.

Yesterday – that is….

With a loud rumble a large thunderstorm cell collided with a stubborn cold front right over my lonely bush rooftop, dumping a ton of icy hail and then proceed to uproot a few trees and dump them onto our 1500feet long driveway and onto the road into town.

Sure thing, the electricity was all whipped out, and with it the phone lines and the internet connections.

So by 3.00 pm I was truly a hermit, holding up my kerosine lamp to the electricity panel in the dark basement, wondering, how to get all my utilities going again.

The only difference between me and the person on my card now is, that it is the Summer Solstice we are approaching, that the hail is rapidly melting into grey mush, that I am not wearing a green cloak, but a zipped up mosquito jacket and there is no wren, but a nursing Raccoon mother, tits swollen with milk, sitting at my feet and wondering , what just happened. She is hungry but there are no more sweet strawberries to be had for either one of us. She can get some cat kibbles and I have to get to work getting our large generator going so there will be some lights in the house this evening.

By-by quiet rest and meditation 😦

Here comes hermit Mi-Shell in survivor mode…. 😦

Solstice reading card 4: Green lines of love and communication:

4. Juno, Goddess of Fertility and Union –

June 17: Celebrating the ancient Roman goddess for whom the month of June is named.

This card shows us an area of fertile growth in our lives. 

My card today is all green, with the glowing eye of the sun at the bottom, spitting out stars. White and yellow lines striving upward, some of them fill a red heart in the centre.

It is the 2 of cups reversed 😦

The 2 of cups is the scene of a handfasting ceremony between 2 ancestral Celtic Spirits: The Horse Goddess and the Green Stag. Selkies and Snakes are the bridegrooms and brides maids. The couple holds one pair of hands up towards the sun. Red hot passion flows from the heart in the centre upwards through these hands and merges with the energy of the sun. Their other hands join downward, love flowing into the 2 cups that stand between them. Male energy into her cup, female energy into his…..

The card is filled with the colours and symbols of fertile growth and abundance and festive celebration. All is wonderful, magical and passionate.

It ‘s just, that it is reversed.

It is true for me and my man right now. there is no reason for any festive mood or celebration at all – rather the reverse is true. All is well, loving and good between Peter and me, we are enjoying a flood of abundance in our lives right now, but we are physically separated by a continent and an ocean. We can communicate, once a day via phone. (He has no WI-fi ) His mom’s sun is setting – fast, filling all of us with dread of what is to come. She is confused and very angry at him for “barging in and meddling in her affairs, her independence.”

We have been through it before, with Peter’s dad.

Yes, we do communicate, once a day – so the lines of communication = the energy flow is still there – and strong, but I would sooo love to just hug him and give some comfort in all this…..

For right now however I am sitting in our beautiful all so VERY GREEN Canadian bush and all I can do is give some advice as to how to deal with someone with dementia and a sporadic memory.

Solstice Reading card 3: Of Foxes and Tears

3. Night of the Teardrop – June 16:

Remembrance of the tears of Isis causing the Nile River to overflow.

This card shows what our emotions are telling us at this time. 

For today I drew the Fox, the Knight of Wands

I seem to be going with a Wand theme here!

All growth, creativity , Fire, energy all the time, even when asked about a question, that addresses my feelings.

In terms of the question I am “hung up” on “night of the tears”.

Yes I could cry a river right now.

A river of tears for my Mother in law, Elisabeth, who at 89 is rapidly sliding into dementia. She bravely tries to cover up her multiple lapses with some sarcastic wit, a typical symptom of the problem. My husband is now over in Germany, with her to rally his 2 brothers and come up with all the sad stuff that will have to happen next, that will curtail her independence and send her off on the long lonely road into darkness.

I could also cry roaring rivers of angry tear for my sister/ friend and for my Native American teacher Ed ( ***)  both befallen with cancer in the later stages.

Yes, I do/ did drum and ask the Spirits for help, and for a while it worked on one and will still work on the other, but I was also told by the Spirits, that ultimately both stand in the sunset of their life……

As a shaman, I can help – to some extend……

But I can not prevent the inevitable.

Not for myself and not for others. We all will have to take that journey at some point.

So often I just cry a river….. and pray, for them to “be in Grace” as long and as well as possible.

The Fox on my card stands within – what in Siberia we call a “dalbur”, a wishing rod.

Some people can use them to witch for water, shamans decorate them with bells for the Sky Spirits and Horse hair for “Hümorü” = Windhorse Energy = Life Energy and then we work on our patients with them. My dalbur also has Raven claws, for Ee’ren Karakoruk, who guides Souls…..

The Fox – I wrote a very long post about Fox Medicine on the Shamanic Drum blog , so ifff anyone is interested, check it out.

https://shamanicdrumm.wordpress.com/2012/02/13/fox-medicine/

Fox like every predator knows everything about death. He is a knight of the swift kill. That is his wisdom. That is, what gives him life.

Ee’ren Dilgiczek is turning around and looking back.

At what was – a full life, well lived, full of love and creativity, kids, grand kids…..

As I am drying my tears, I am taking comfort in that

Solstice Reading Card 2 Hearth Fire:

2. Vestalia – June 15:

An ancient Roman festival dedicated to Vesta, Goddess of the Hearth.

This card shows us our hearth, the fire at the centre of our life and home, and how to tend to it.

My Hearth Fire card

is the 2 of Wands from the Greenwood Tarot:

A Person stands between 2 staffs, the third staff is deep within him/ her as a sacred centre.

The red and white Snakes form a double helix of kundalini Medicine Energy and have risen above the person’s heart and are reaching the the throat energy centre any moment. then, when the heart overflows into the throat, will we will hear words of wisdom -or a chant?

The Person is changing form being person to being Shaman/ healer/ seer; hands raised to receive and transmit this sacred inner fire. The air surrounding this seer is flirrrrring with the Energy and it swirls outward as well as inward in fluid drops of Medicine Power and insight.

I had my first full up rising of the kundalini Energy when I was barely 18 years old and it transformed me completely!!

It was exhilarating painful, confusing delicious and yes, completely transformational……

Since then THIS is my inner HEARTH FIERE and the guiding force for my shamanic practice and work with my patients.

It flows up from the Earth through me and out through them and sometimes also their loved ones and ultimately back into the Earth. I do feel it of course, but when the trance is full On” I can also see and smell it. Flirrring Energy for which I am just a convenient conduit.

Yes, in the card I also see the white pebbles that actually form the ground = the Earth = the need to be grounded, when it happens. The centre conduit open but not in a way, that completely overwhelms the practitioner – like it inevitably will, when it happens the very first time…..

Since back then I have also help people through their very first kundalini rising experience and its aftereffects…

How do I tend to it?

By giving Thanks for being allowed to let it flow through me onward to others.

This Fire after all is also the sacred source for my creativity and so for my daily income as an artist. It also is the very Fire that rises in me, when I read Tarot for others; just that then it is a gentle sissseling tickle coming up my spine into the top of my head…..

I honour this Energy by not “holding on”, by grounding myself, by – again- NOT over-doing it, because this Fire can easily burn a candle on both ends and burn up a person completely, consume him/ her. Create nothing but “burned toast.”

Chesca Potter, the artist of the Greenwood Tarot knows the trance and that feeling. In that aspect we are “birds of a feather”. She however also knows, how to DRAW that! For that I am very thankful.♥

Back to today and this reading:

Today, when pulling this card of course the shamanic aspect of this card is the first thing I pay attention to.

Sooo, while the Kundalini and the DNA-like double helix of the healing Snakes are my inner Hearth Fire, I should not forget the mundane booooring good old stove in the middle of my house. In the middle of the Canadian bush it keeps us toasty warm, even when it is – 40 centigrade outside. It then is the natural centre of the home and through its glass window we can see, observe and meditate with the roaring flames inside. A good Fire meditation late at night at the stove – or outside at our fire ring is rejuvenating and healing in itself. It is the daily “little Fire, that can”

In hectic times – like the ones I confronted in yesterday’s reading, that is essentially important. So I am glad, that while yesterday’s card among other things also featured this “little Fire, that can” today’s card features the Fire of my Life.

May YOUR Fire burn bright as well!

the Sacred days of Summer spread:

I am participating in a group on Aeclectic Tarot, that is doing a Summer Solstice Reading with “the Sacred Days of Summer ” spread.

http://www.tarotforum.net/showthread.php?t=275081&page=4

Each day for the next 12 days we will draw 1 card for this spread.

Here is a little more info about this spread – and maybe you will follow along?

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The Sacred Days of Midsummer spread is inspired by the Sacred Days of Yule Spread created by June Kaminski. This spread brings in inspiration from various cultures to help us embrace the sacredness of the festive season of summer. This is an advanced spread for any level of reader to use during the time of Midsummer, June 14-June 25. We will walk this sacred path together around the Summer Solstice.

Like the Yule spread, the Sacred Days of Midsummer spread is unique because it is done over these twelve days. You need to find a quiet private space to progress through this spread, since a card is added and left on the wheel as each day passes.

Sacred Days of Midsummer Interpretation

This spread will help you to learn to apply the tarot to enjoy and enrich your passage through the twelve days from June 14th to 25th, drawing on multicultural festivities that take place during this time.

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11————-5-
-10———–6—
—9——–7—–
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1. Birth of the Muses – June 14: This card shows how our inspiration and creativity is manifesting.

2. Vestalia – June 15: An ancient Roman festival dedicated to Vesta, Goddess of the Hearth. This card shows us our hearth, the fire at the center of our life and home, and how to tend to it.

3. Night of the Teardrop – June 16: Remembrance of the tears of Isis causing the Nile River to overflow. This card shows what our emotions are telling us at this time.

4. Juno, Goddess of Fertility and Union – June 17: Celebrating the ancient Roman goddess for whom the month of June is named. This card shows us an area of fertile growth in our lives.

5. Festival of Strawberries – June 18: As the strawberries ripen, this card shows us the sweetness in our lives.

6. Oak King – June 19: A dedication to the Oak King, who is now near the height of his power in his battle with the Holly King. This card shows us our strength.

7. Scrying – June 20: In the tradition of scrying at the time of Midsummer, this card shows us a blessing to come.

8. Summer Solstice – June 21: We are at the height of the sun’s power, the longest day, in the Northern Hemisphere; OR in the Southern Hemisphere this day is the turning point for the days to get longer. This card shows us how to shine our own light like the Sun.

9. Honey Moon – June 22: This card shows us how to release anxieties or worries, how to enjoy ourselves in this moment.

10. Saint John’s Eve – June 23: Like the herbs traditionally gathered on St. John’s Eve, this card shows what protects or heals us.

11. Guru Purnima – June 24: Indian festival of expressing gratitude to teachers. This card reminds us of a lesson we have learned, or an experience or person that has taught us something, that we should remember and have gratitude for as we move forward.

12. Parvati, Earth Mother – June 25: The card shows us how to ground ourselves and how to connect with the earth’s abundance.

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Directions
This spread is unique from other spreads – it is done one card at a time, over the course of twelve days. Each card is meant to be drawn and reflected upon as a separate entity, with a special unique message for the particular sacred day.

1. If you like you may print out a copy of the Yule wheel spread for guidance on the layout- or just use the layout shown there, also shown above.

2 Select a consistent time of day to draw each card over the twelve days if you can- or, just find a time that works for you.

3. Each day, draw one card from your tarot deck and lay it out according to the corresponding spoke of the wheel. Reflect on each card and glean the message it has for you, according to the meanings given above.

4. By June 25th your wheel will be full with the drawn twelve cards. Reflect on the overall meaning of these twelve cards as a whole and write down your impressions of the message for this sacred time.

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Well, my first card in this spread is the 10 of Wands.

A person is carrying 10 long poles towards a tent, set up beneath a starry sky illuminated by the waxing moon. A fire provides warmth, light and comfort at this camp site. I see, that the task the person is engaged in is laborious and difficult. Tooooo many poles to control at the same time. Are the poles meant as fuel for the fire or will they be for setting up another tent/ tzartan/ teepee or other shelter?

I do resonate deeply with the image.

This is me, trying to carry the load – all by myself.

It actually is EXACTLY, WHAT IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!

Today was a stressful hectic day: We had to set up our booth at the local Farmer’s Market all the while showing and teaching friends, that wanted to help out, how to do that. That made the whole procedure awkward and even more time consuming then it already is. Later one of our friends drove my husband to a larger town down south, so he can catch a bus to the airport to fly to see his ageing and recently quite confused mother in Germany. Peter will be gone for – not as we discussed 14 days, but decided on 3 weeks. So, literally, I am left holding up the “sticks” here, with our business, 2 more than 15 year old cars, that always break down, a log-house in the bush where a Black Bear just broke in the basement door at dawn today, making a mess and letting millions of Mosquitoes and Blackflies and other biting insects, never mind mice into the house…..

I just see, the door of the tent on my card of the day is open . It looks inviting, but…..

It might be inviting friends – and or trouble…….

In the days to come I will have to carefully choose how much of a “load” I can and how much of it I am willing to carry – all by myself. Help is there, when I need it. It is also time for finding new and creative ways to solve problems. I can rely on my creativity; I am a professional artist. I also have a “knack“to “Jerry-rig” things, when in a pinch.

The scene in my card is night.

At the end of the day, I will have to drop all the sticks, chores and all the stuff to do and make some time to relax and sit by the fire to regenerate, or I will wear myself out.

Sometimes I have a tendency to do that, just to get things “done”.

This is the 10 of Wands, and 10 point towards endings.

Yes, there will be an end to this in about 3 weeks, when Peter comes home again – or will there?

In 3 weeks our summer season will start in earnest with thousands of tourists descending on Muskoka and our business will be hopping like crazzzzy until mid September….

We will both be carrying more than “too many sticks”

We also KNEW, that times like this would come: Peter;s mom declining and he having to take a more active role in her care and decision making. In Germany he will be carrying just as many “sticks” as I am here. They will be of a different nature, but they will weigh heavy on both of our souls.

May he too have a fire, where he can relax, at the end of a hard day.

The Wild Unknown Oracle of Snakes and Eggs:

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You folks all know, how much I LOVE Animals and that I have a predilection for Animal Oracles and Tarots. So I was very exited to receive the Wild Unknown Oracle as a Winter Solstice present. I do have and quite like its predecessor, the Wild unknown Tarot and even coloured most all cards as a meditative exercise that took me deeper into the “card soul” of the deck.

The WU Oracle – I do love the sturdy box and the silky card stock and do like most of the individual art work, feeling, that is gives justice to the Animal selected. But it is the selection of Animals itself, that soon after starting to use the deck for my daily 3 card draws, that I bumped up against.

My daily draw is:

1 – guardian of the day

2 – challenge/ obstacle

3 – advice/ outcome

I can not tell you how often I managed to draw the combination of Earthworm – Sea Serpent and Snake

and perplexedly starrrrred at the 3 swirrrrling circles of life before me…..

Or the combination of Crow – Black Egg – and cosmic Egg!??

Why are there soooo many eggs and Snakes with eggs?

Because sure enough, I see the Crow sitting on – an Egg and if it is not the Crow, then it is the Nightingale sitting on a Robin’s egg…….

OK, this is not, what it is supposed to be, according to the accompanying booklet and so to the deck creator…… that is just what I see….

So of course I did study the book.

And then I stumbled over the next hurdle – for me:

Many of the descriptions accompanying the Animals are not at all related to lore and myth but probably more the personal view of the deck creator. On the one hand, that is very interesting and lets me into her head, on the other hand I feel, that a user that is new to all the world wide lore and myth about the depicted animals is mission out a LOT!

For example the Hyena: (Yes, I painted mine!)do you know, that Hyenas live in a very strictly matrilineal society and that the strongest female, in an attempt to become the pack leader with mating and pub rearing privileges often has to fight her litter sisters to the death?

Would you want to know these things if the card comes up in a reading?

Did you know, that in India and Nepal Peacocks are seen as having an “all seeing eye” and are said to be able to transmute poison? Their feathers are used in cleansing rituals by shamans and also in some Buddhist rituals.

And in the book the Bear is the lowliest of the Earth mammals 😦 does the deck creator know, that circum-polar = from the Ainu in Japan all across Siberia to Finland, Norway, Sweden to the early tribes of England and of course here all over North America the Bear is a powerful healer and aid to the shaman who heals with herbs, son and ritual. Among my own Siberian ancestral tribe it is told that the Bear was a Sky Khan, a God. He agreed to come down to Earth to teach the Khams = Shamans how to heal the sick and then guard the eastern Door against Albis and other disease spirits. Here in North America the Bear is a healer everywhere.

In our Mohawk Longhouse the Sachem always tells us the beautiful story of how the Bear changed into an ooooold man and came into the home of the Bear Clan matriarch to teach her how to heal all kinds of diseases and what herbs to use when and where…..

There would be many many similar stories to tell, that often would contradict the promptings given in the book.

Many others I am now tasked to discover for myself. Zebra and Stingray for example were not Critters, that I was previously familiar with – when it comes to lore and legend.

Zebra of course has a coat that totally camouflages it against its background, because the big Cats Cheetah, Lion and Panther see only in black and white and so the Zebra has no clear contours……

Interesting, eh?

Well, this is just me, putting a couple of Fire Ants underneath your bud, to go deeper and find out about the true Medicine of the depicted Animals.

The Cradle of the Wind is rocking

Another day another heat-wave, another migraine….

Until the meds work and I can actually see with both my eyes (instead of having “double vision), I may as well sit here and write about my card of the day.

Ace of Coins – Tarot of the Trance again.

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Crazy image – very befitting how I feel and what is going on in my life: I recognise roots! Rootedness – for – probably the Apple Tree. Apples speak to me of harvest, of a time of plenty and yes, plenty is happening here right now. The Orobora is eating her own tail.

Like me, like both of us. At this time of the year we are both racing around in ever tightening circles eating ourselves up while giving birth to our art and our 5 cents of wisdom, which in my case is greedily swallowed up by my clients and sometimes even used constructively, so their Apples can grow and ripen as well.

The hectic 2 sided face in the centre should remind me of a prominent figure in mythology, but with the migraine, the archetype does not come into the forefront of my mind. Instead I see myself here – the annoying double visions, me swinging my poor head hectically this way and that to keep an eye on all the swirrrrrling action around me….. The blue wings speak to me of wind. Storm to be precise and to “almost take off, but not quite” But taking off works fully against the roots, that keep me grounded!

2 of my Miahanits are Birds. A decade or 2 ago when I went on a shamanic trance journey to ask for helpand advice with the stress during the hectic summer month one of them told me, that during the summer months I must live “in the Cradle of the Wind”

This is the image of the “Cradle of the Wind” for today!

Action to be taken today:

Hold on to your Roots = stay grounded.

Eat an Apple or 2 –

Oh yes, make some children’s bracelet using up those tiny Apple beads I got from the art store!